Hmm……

Why do I continue to let others control my life?

You know…..

There is something about life. How amazing and terrible it can be at the same.

Friday I had a particularly terrible day and all the support I didn’t think I had just surrounded me. It was amazing.

Morning…..

Is it good? If so tell me why. What made your morning good?

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Dearly Departed …..

Thank you for being here.

You ever realize you are having a series of small breakdowns because if you had one big one you wouldn’t live through it?

Dearly Departed,

11/05/2021

10:32pm

Still breathing

Life and stuff…..

yeah, life………..

so much has happened……..

so much going on…….

I have had 3 people, that’s right, 3 people try to catfish me! I have been on actual dates with several people. I haven’t been on a real date in so long I can’t remember when it was. Is that sad? I think it is.

I have a boyfriend now. Which sounds and feels very weird to me. Like, a 16 year old girl has a boyfriend……I am 39. Do 39 year old women have boyfriends? It feels so weird as well. It is actually terrifying. Looks don’t matter to me. I like to see people for who they are not what they look like. But, this man is gorgeous. I look at pictures and think, this is got to be a trick, this can’t be real, I am pretty enough for this guy, he must want something, this is an A+ catfish.

All my negative thoughts are very hard to silence right now………