New Years Eve…..

What did I do this year? I didn’t do anything but barely make it.

Right now.

I’m so tired I can’t sleep.

Why do I continue to let others control my life?

There is something about life. How amazing and terrible it can be at the same.

Friday I had a particularly terrible day and all the support I didn’t think I had just surrounded me. It was amazing.

Is it good? If so tell me why. What made your morning good?

You know when you think you know where to go for support and it’s all bullshit……..

Thank you for being here.

You ever realize you are having a series of small breakdowns because if you had one big one you wouldn’t live through it?

I hate myself and wish I were dead

I am ready to die. My oldest is 18, my youngest is 16 and hates me.

#mylifeontheborderline